Running on autopilot
I wrote this at 11pm on the 22nd of April, hoping to post it here. Unfortunately, three and a bit months later there’s been little change. I would describe it as running on autopilot- unless I’ve seen or video called friends, I haven’t spoken to anyone. I haven’t done any extra work or preparation for fourth year, I haven’t read or replied to important emails, and I’ve missed opportunities. My focus has been on staying alive, trying to stay sane and hydrated, and on keeping myself out of hospital for as long as I could. So naturally… I’ve been in hospital just shy of two weeks again, after multiple failed replacements of my NJ tube. It’s another case of “it was supposed to be an overnight thing but here we are…” except this time I’m on my own, and trying to make three t-shirts last the never ending stay. I’m struggling to tolerate my usual feed at my normal rate, and trying to navigate the waters of being “refed” since I lost my NJ a month ago. That’s not to mention my croh...
